hurting myself

I hurt myself today 

To see if I still feel 

I focus on the pain 

The only thing that's real 

The needle tears a hole 

The old familiar sting 

Try to kill it all away 

But I remember everything 

What have I become 

My sweetest friend 

Everyone I know 

goes away 

In the end 

And you could have it all 

My empire of dirt 

I will let you down 

I will make you hurt 

I wear this crown of thorns 

Upon my liar's chair 

Full of broken thoughts 

I cannot repair